Tuesday was by far the worst day. Wednesday and Thursday were much better, I even laughed.

Today is dodgy. I keep swinging form tears to fear to okay to fear to tears. I am going for a massage at 2pm.

I really want this to end now. I need my body to quit hurting and me to stop letting it scare me. I could take the pills I was given, I know it relieves it, but I really don't want to brush this under the carpet and also don't want to get dependent. I will take 2.5mg tonight if I need to. Lets see how I feel after this massage.

I need to be feeling strong to go the show on Sunday.

After feelign so much better wed and Thurs I am disappointed to be feeling like this today.