Thursday, May 28, 2009

SPONTANEITY

John has gone to Edinburgh today for a conference and I will not see him until Sunday evening. It makes the week seem very long as well as makes me feel insecure. I always think 'what if I fall over and can't get up?' or some such thing.

I had a dream about grief last night. I can't recall it all but know the theme was about how grief never leaves one, one carried it around like a suitcase that was tied to one by a chain. Or so it seemed in the dream. I think this was possibly triggered by a scene in Grey's Anatomy. Alex, one of the male characters that I do not like, expressed his grief. It was one of those scenes which makes me spontaneously cry. No warning, no lump in throat, just a sudden gush of grief. Hard to describe really, it's almost like something just takes a leap out me in a split second and I find myself feeling grief again. (I feel differently toward this character, Alex, now.)

I must be quite mad. I am knitting a pair of socks with Schaefer 'Anne' on 1.5mm needles!

James was fine at training last night. It appears then that it is the outside, specifically the breeze/wind, that he is afraid of. It was very windy the day of the fire and he was caught up in that.

I went for my swim this morning and whilst it was more difficult it went okay. The water was colder than usual and this made it more painful for me. I don't warm up, I get colder.



More photographs of Pest. This is the Budapest version of the Arc de Triumph. I think you may have gathered that I like sculpture / architecture / art. It amazes me what humans can create.





4 comments:

Iris said...

It's sad John won't be with you this weekend. It's hard when the pleasant routines are interrupted.

Yarnhog said...

I'm sorry you have to be without John this week. I always feel out of sorts when my husband is gone, and I don't have the added worry of being alone and needing help. It's good you have the dogs to keep you company.

Jane said...

We saw those monuments in Budapest last summer--they are wonderful. I'm glad James is doing OK.

Jane said...

We saw the same monuments when we were there last summer. Very impressive. I'm glad James is doing OK.