would you tell me how father is, please?
I can be contacted at this address or you can contact John at:
I will of course inform you of any changes regarding Dad's health or presence with us.
Your concern regarding my peace of mind is surprising and unnecessary. I am at peace with myself and with life. You seem to not understand that it was my family that rejected me, not the other way around. I have come to terms with that. I am glad to be who I am and I see clearly who missed out here.
As for seeing you as living real person, I think that is projection on your part because you have never treated me anything like a person, but rather as an object that didn't ever matter. I know only too well that you are real.
This is all water under the bridge. For me at any rate. I thank you again for at least agreeing to let me know should father go over before I do.
I think it best that our communications are left to that. I have given you the benefit of the doubt twice, in 94 and in 05 and both times what started out promising ended with you spewing hatred out at me and, like you always have, blaming me. You might want to look at that, especially in light of what you do.
There has never been a bond between us. Never. You have never shown me anything but contempt, mockery and hatred. I fail to understand why you think there can be anything I want from you.
I know you won't believe it, because it won't suit you, but I really do not hate you. I do feel compassion for you. I know where you came from. I only wish the best for you.
I think maybe you can't get your head around the fact that I am whole despite my family. I survived, I survived well. I live, I don't just exist and I don't carry that filth with me anymore. I am free of you and hopefully you can find that same freedom.
If it was not for my own spiritual gift and the fact John and I attend church on a regular basis
I would not have asked this of you. I do hope you can keep your word. It is all I ask of you.