Saturday, November 24, 2007

Challenging

As I walked into the hall where I was to speak this evening, the first person I saw was someone I really cannot abide. I won't go into too much here but I dropped this person in 2002 after having stupidly put up with being used and abused for too long because I allowed them to guilt me into continuing to help them. I wised up though.

Sadly, as much as I try not to actively dislike anyone, I have not succeeded with this person. Not to the point that I would wish them harm or do them harm or even not treat them respect but I still cannot abide them. Probably, aside from my parents, the most self centred and cruel person I have come across who also believes they are above everyone else and are always right.


Not only did I overcome this and worked well, but during the demonstration part, I had to speak with them. That went well too. Upon leaving, I felt a bit down on myself for not working as well as I know I can but that didn't last for long as I soon realised I had worked very well considering the circumstances.

5 comments:

CP Warner said...

The best you can do is the best you can do. It isn't easy. Sometimes it would be a lot more satisfying in the moment to return evil for evil. But having the grace to rise above that stays with you a lot longer and doesn't leave you thinking, "but I could have" or "I should have."

You are making amazing progress!

((((hugs))))

P.

Anonymous said...

Bravo, Colin. You proved you are the better person. How anyone could be cruel to you, I do not understand.

LizzieK8 said...

Doesn't it feel good when you push past a barrier? Congrats! And congrats, too, on cutting yourself a break when realizing that you did the best you could under the circumstances. We all don't have to be perfect all of the time!

Kucki68 said...

Sounds like a good go to me! Yeah, Colin! (Waving my cheerleading pompoms...)

Anonymous said...

good for you! most of us have problems even being polite or pleasant to people like that, so I think that you did really well
and I am really impressed that you 'cut yourself a break' for not being absolutely perfect