Saturday, April 26, 2008

Fundamental Change

It would seem that my emotional clear out of the last few months of last year has brought about more change than I thought and at a deeper level than I have been aware.

Every time I have been away from home I do not sleep at all well and do not poo. Both of these things combined makes being away very difficult. I get very tired and confused and physically bloated and feel pretty awful.


Last Xmas when we went to Mannheim and spent time with new friends Diana and Lui and Lia, I not only slept each night but pooed too! It was not so easy the first night and I didn't poo for a couple of days but it was much better than it normally was.

This trip to Belgium was entirely without those two problems. I slept well from the first night and my bathroom habits remained normal. Phew!

This tells me that something has changed within me. I think part of that change is feeling more secure. Whatever it is, the change is obvious and shows itself in being able to sleep and have normal gut action when I am not on familiar ground.


3 comments:

Barb in Irving said...

Good for you!!!! It worked for me. It is really painful to experience the emotions you have stuffed and at first you can't tell there is a change. You are so exhausted and emotionally drained and then one day it hits you!!!! "Hey, I didn't used to react like this! I have made a difference!!!!!!!!" I am so happy for you...you deserve happiness and freedom.
love ya,
Barb in Irving

mad angel said...

Wow, that's a terrific battle won, Colin! You'll be able to travel more now, I bet, and enjoy it more.

Not being facetious at all here, but I must say, the older I get, the more I appreciate proper body function in all regions! Poo included. :-)

I'm happy for you, that this trip turned out so well in so many ways.

nana said...

That is great news, not being 'stuffed up' and tired makes a difference, for sure.

Keep up being good to you :-)