NOT FEELING MYSELF

..but I might later unless I have a better offer which lets face it is hardly likely since I am not going out.

I gave Daniel a trial run today.(edit: Daniel as in Craig-the explanation is too rude!) Or rather this afternoon. I used him to go to the Doc. Oh pavements are very bumpy and potholey. also, you'd think it would be easy to drive one of these things. It isn't. The joy stick is very sensitive and one really has to be careful which way one touches it or it just shoots off . I soon figured out that he is easier to handle when set to slow. I eventually also figured out how to how his stick forward with no slight left or right movements which of course caused Daniel to left or right. I didn't wan tot end up in the traffic. Oh, and not all pavements have dips. The most difficulty I had was manoeuvring around the surgery and thru too narrow doorways.

I accepted the script for the morphine and at 7pm I snapped one 10mg pill in half and took it. At 7.15pm i went next door to Joyce who is a nurse for reassurance that I was okay. I got a little panicky. I HATE new drugs. My face felt flushed but that was it. At 8pm I came back indoors and took the other half. I feel quite nice now. It was decided I would take it now so that if anything untoward happened it wasn't the middle of the night. Nothing has happened and I feel really quite nice. I feel a little heavy in my hands as I type but appear to have no pain anywhere.In fact I could happily go tot bed but it is too early for the dogs and John hasn't called yet.

I will only take a couple of these with me on our trip, if any at all. They are not for regular use, only for when it gets too much. Elizabeth agreed that the anitinflammatories are really not wise for me. Retaining salt, water and not peeing much and having a raised bp are all dangerous. Since I stopped taking them yesterday, I have peed constantly today. (I am not sure at all that my spellchecker can spell you know. It comes up with the oddest words and thinks some real words are not and vice versa.)

Anyway I must go and see to the pups and dogs.

WHOOPSADAISY

TURBO CHAIR

I am excited about our trip more so now that I have the turbo chair. I shall have to name it. Our SatNav is named Gertrude. This buy has really increased our freedom and the places we can visit. I don't know why I didn't buy it ages ago. I must say that I had difficulty buying it. It was a lot of money and is really committing to being handicapped I suppose. Yes, it will be a chore to have to dismantle it for putting in the car and putting back in but that is a small price to pay for the freedom it will give.

PUPPIES

James, Carly and Little Dorrit did really on their first trip to show classes. They were a little taken aback at meeting other dogs, especially as they looked so different, but stood their ground, no shying away. When it was time for standing on the table for the judge and then walking g up and down, they did really well. I only gave them one go each and back home again. I have found the best way for lead training and show training is a very short time daily and praising them as much as possible. I am still delighted with these puppies. Their temperaments are excellent and their construction is too. Happy little souls. James is very typical Apso in that he looks with disdain at me. He hasn't got to the point of wagging his tail at me or seeming to be pleased to see me. He still firmly believes that i am beneath him. Carly and Little Dorrit both was my face well, given the chance and are always pleased ot see me. Carly is a little more reserved than Little Dorrit who is right in your face all the time.

HOMESICKNESS

Although I am very much looking forward to our time away, I know I shall get homesick, or dog sick really. I know from past experience that on the 4th day I shall want desperately to come home. I also know that if I let the feeling just sit here and don't act upon it, it will pass. This is the first 2 week trip we have done for 6 years and only the third ever.

KNITTING

I have restarted the bamboo/nylon WENDY HAPPY socks three times now. I have come to the conclusion that they want to be plain stocking stitch. They are striped, broad striping, in blue and red.

BODY TALK

I just woke up for the second time today. I did sleep last night, well in fact, and I got up at 8.30am. I pottered about, bathed Micah, ate, and was back in bed by 1.30pm. I was in much pain when I awoke the first time so pill popped and ow I am okay. Just very tired. I am waiting for my doc to call to see if she has any ideas as to why my balance goes for no apparent reason. Last night, when I stumbled and would have fallen if not for being held up, I wasn't even moving, just stood there. It seems that suddenly my balance mechanism just goes and I start to topple.

DUH!

The turbo charged chair means we can now do Prague. Why neither of us thought about buying one before when we realised that Prague was out of the question because trying to do it with just my sticks and a manual chair wasn't on for either of us. So Prague it will be next trip. I also want to do Helsinki and Tallinn but that will require a ship or a long swim.

Yes, I am up late. Feel crap. Fell over in church tonight although Liz and Sheila stopped me going down. Feel very tired but laying down just felt worse. Someone pulled my plug out this evening as from Monday till tonight I had been feeling good.