Saturday, November 24, 2007


As I walked into the hall where I was to speak this evening, the first person I saw was someone I really cannot abide. I won't go into too much here but I dropped this person in 2002 after having stupidly put up with being used and abused for too long because I allowed them to guilt me into continuing to help them. I wised up though.

Sadly, as much as I try not to actively dislike anyone, I have not succeeded with this person. Not to the point that I would wish them harm or do them harm or even not treat them respect but I still cannot abide them. Probably, aside from my parents, the most self centred and cruel person I have come across who also believes they are above everyone else and are always right.

Not only did I overcome this and worked well, but during the demonstration part, I had to speak with them. That went well too. Upon leaving, I felt a bit down on myself for not working as well as I know I can but that didn't last for long as I soon realised I had worked very well considering the circumstances.


CP Warner said...

The best you can do is the best you can do. It isn't easy. Sometimes it would be a lot more satisfying in the moment to return evil for evil. But having the grace to rise above that stays with you a lot longer and doesn't leave you thinking, "but I could have" or "I should have."

You are making amazing progress!



Anonymous said...

Bravo, Colin. You proved you are the better person. How anyone could be cruel to you, I do not understand.

LizzieK8 said...

Doesn't it feel good when you push past a barrier? Congrats! And congrats, too, on cutting yourself a break when realizing that you did the best you could under the circumstances. We all don't have to be perfect all of the time!

Kucki68 said...

Sounds like a good go to me! Yeah, Colin! (Waving my cheerleading pompoms...)

Anonymous said...

good for you! most of us have problems even being polite or pleasant to people like that, so I think that you did really well
and I am really impressed that you 'cut yourself a break' for not being absolutely perfect